Cringe-Worthy Writing

"Sebastian. Apparently they called him Seb. That’s something they do. They give each other nicknames. Mine had been given to me by The Others. Clay, because my victims look as elegant as clay sculptures when I’m done. I didn't argue. I remember, my favorite had been Jane Smith. She wore a beautiful white dress and a bow in her hair. I had posed her limp body in a way that made her appear to be dancing. I had soaked that pretty white dress in her blood and when she wore it, she looked as though she had gracefully twirled out of Hell. A true masterpiece. She had such dancers fingers, I had to take the pinkies." 

WARNING: You have now entered the dark realm of my blog. Content is not suitable for those who lack an open mind. Not to be read by those who have a weak stomach and a disrespect for the genius of horror.

To those who have just joined the journey, welcome. To those who have been fans from day 1, you are the real MVPs. To those I've forced to read my blog, sorry but it's for your own good. My goal is to write something that is good enough to be considered a book. Getting my writing published would be amazing but is not the reason I am doing this. I am writing because it makes me happy and is something I would choose to spend all my time doing.

I am writing a book about blood. I am writing a book about guts. I am writing a book about gore. Not exactly everyones first choice, but it is for me. Yes I do realize that murder and death are not things that should make someone excited. But I want to be able to write something that will make people uncomfortable. I want to make people squirm and get shivers down their back. I want to write something that will mess with peoples emotions. That's what I want my writing to be.

I originally began wanting to write after I read the book Game by Barry Lyga. Now if you actually look this book up, you'll notice that it's the second book in the series. Why didn't the first book inspire me to want to write? Well, my friends, I read the second book first, not realizing there was a whole book ahead of it until the last few pages. I quickly read through the first book after that, but the second book still stuck with me. That feeling of wanting to write a gore-filled book stayed with me for two years until I was given the opportunity through this project.

Telling myself I need to write every week was not the easiest thing to do. I've always been one of those leave-it-until-the-night-before kind of people. But through this project, I have found something that I am driven to work on. I did not choose a topic that I thought would be easy. It is not easy to be a junior in high school and write a book. No, I chose it because it is something that I was motivated to work on. I love writing enough to make time for it. If that means one less Netflix movie, so be it. I am determined that this project, whether I publish a book or not, will have a positive impact and I will not regret it.

I hope that one day, you all read a book that makes you cringe. A book that cuts you deep and makes you incredibly uneasy. And I hope that book will be mine.

The Guts of Writing

"I watched as he slowly stood, never breaking focus with me. Tears rolled down my face, the warm salty mixture pouring into my mouth. The taste made me feel weak. Made me feel vulnerable. I couldn’t let it show. If there was one thing I had learned, it was to never show weakness to a killer. They feed on weakness; they strive for it. I stiffened my body and sat up straight. He laughed with a bitter edge that sent shivers running down my back. I had never heard this laugh before. I wanted a warm laugh that would fill the room with music. I yearned for my ears to dance to that laugh. But it never came and I knew it never would. I wouldn’t be alive. My eyes were heavy as they struggled to bring this scene to life."

Writing has been a little slow lately, seeing as spring tends to be my busiest season. I write every chance I get. I have a really broad outline of where my story is going, but the in betweens is what I am really struggling with. As the weather warms up, though, I can sit outside and write. The fresh air helps me think much better. Something about being cramped up in my room just doesn't help me write. It's too similar to the cramped room of a good old fashion torture chamber. And though you'd think it'd help me write, I prefer not to feel like a victim while I let my creativity flow into my book.

On the side of my blog, I have added a poll that you can take to decide the name of the next character in my book. Coming up with names for character's is not exactly my strong suit, so maybe having other people decide will save me some time.

I have started a new book called Shutter Island by Dennis Lahane. Yes, I know that it is a horror movie and surprisingly I have not seen it yet. I have enjoyed the first 30 pages of it and hopefully it will give me some inspiration for my book. The more books and movies I watch, the more horrific ideas I get for my book, which means I am able to write more. 

I've watched some pretty good horror movies in my time and if you ever need a movie, don't hesitate to ask me. Just don't come crying back to me when you can't take the heat of my perfect horror selection. Or better yet wait until I finish my book and read that. I can guarantee more blood than Carrie had dumped on her at prom.

I am really happy about the comments I have gotten concerning my blog. Many people have told me they are excited to read my book, which means a lot to me. Maybe I'll never be a published author, but I think having the support of my friends and family is just as good.